My good friend Gugi is turning 60 on Wed. and I convinced she and her husband this would be the perfect place to celebrate! They are flying in on Tues which is their anniversary so J is fixing a prime rib dinner to celebrate. The following day is her birthday and we are going to Lavender for a candlelight dinner. The next day we are going to ride the tram which J and I have not done for more years than I can remember. I am going to pack lunch and go hike a bit and find someplace nice to picnic. Gug has requested my enchiladas so that pretty much is the plan. Eating, drinking, talking and laughing for 3 days! I always worry about our company hoping I make them feel welcome and they leave saying phew that was fun. My worrying sometimes gets in the way of me having fun so I am trying to flow this time. I want so badly for this to be special.
If I was asked what have you been doing lately I would have to reply sewing...sewing...sewing! Remember me worrying about losing my mojo and not being able to begin again. Well I found it!
Pretty crazy right? I have been so forgetful lately but I am hoping its because there are so many ideas and creative thoughts in my head I have artist overload. I now have 10 pieces for the art show and still time to make a few more. I am feeling good about this one time endeavor. I am hoping something sells but not counting on it. I just want to be somebody special for a minute.
We have some friends from Montana we have known for 29 yrs email us to meet for lunch. Bill found out at 67 he has cancer and told 6 months to live. I wont lie and say we were not worried about what to say to someone in that situation. Yet we felt it an honor that seeing us was on his bucket list as they travel around. We had the best time and were able to talk about everything. They seemed so positive and strong I felt nothing but admiration. I also wanted the doctors to be wrong and to receive his wonderful humorous Xmas letter come Dec. To plan another meeting maybe in Montana next time...I so want a different ending for them both. Bill suggested we read Proof of Heaven saying it gives one hope its not the end. I am in the middle right now and its an interesting book for sure.
My brother Ron is here at mom's for a few days on his pilgrimage from Mexico to Oregon. Its always good to see him and catch up on his adventures. He called his ex wife and good friend Sandy who lives nearby only to find out she has cancer as well. Again the 'nothing we can do' 6 months..go live now. My heart feels so heavy for her and wish I knew something I could do or say to help her. I cant help wondering what I would want to do if told this. I liked that movie Bucket List with its Hollywood way of living BIG to the end. I dont think it was realistic however because how do you get over the feeling cheated, why me...anger of it all? Maybe we should all live as if we only had 6 months to live and try not to waste a day. I have no answers.
As I drove to my mom's yesterday to play dominos I went past an RV lot with a nice class C being displayed. For some reason I wanted so badly to stop and walk thru it just for the opportunity to dream. While I didn't love being 'homeless' 2 yrs ago, there is nothing I would like more than to pack up every May and hit the road. There are so many wonderful places to visit just in the USA and I still want to. I would be happy to even just go some place and park next to a stream and listen. To smell the scent of pine trees and take walks. That would be my bucket dream list...take my home and family with me to experience the joys of being on an adventure. It makes me sad to know it will not happen short of a lottery or selling my home. I cant even win a game of Mexican Train so I guess the lottery is out. Life.
We are looking forward to returning to the Air Museum on Monday for the annual B 25 flower drop. It was spectacular last year and just a wonderful way to remember our veterans. I hope you all have fun plans for the holiday as well.
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