Another year has arrived and so far so good. I always love New Years not because of the parties or celebrations but because I find hope in a new beginning. Somehow a clean slate offers up the chance to be better, do more, make a difference, stop swearing..oh wait that one was personal! You know what I mean tho. Its not resolutions I can't keep but setting goals that are possible to attain.
Last year my main goal was to prove I am a serious artist and be somebody for a minute. I totally nailed it and 2013 ended with me feeling proud of myself for attaining that goal. This year I am striving to be a stronger happier person focused on the moment and less on dreams of what might be better. I want to be strong enough to recognize when something or someone is not good for me and walk away. I want to be strong enough to not let others words and judgements affect my decisions or how I feel. Its my life to live and I need to be in control of my future. Let go of my expectations of others and choose to be happy each day~find the positive in every situation. Life is about lessons to learn and grow from and we will continue to repeat the same mistakes if we do not learn the lesson. I truly seem to be a slow learner when it comes to relationships...
On another note...I read and see on tv how so many families are becoming multi generational due to circumstances. Everything from laid off work, health issues, losing a house etc. You cant help but consider if that could happen to you and the answer has always been no. Our boys have never been rich but have always worked and had their own lives. Even when Ky could not find work in PHX it never occurred to any of us as a solution that he move home. It was merely a big bump in his journey he needed to work thru. Well...Rande's career choice is to be in the music business and that mean touring on the road. When his house in Denver was no longer available for rent it did make sense for him to put his things in storage while touring. Why pay rent if you are not home much? So it was decided he would pop in here and his brother's in SD between jobs. He arrived 12/31 with the rest of his stuff from Denver and got a storage unit here in the desert. At least its close and he can get at things he might need and much cheaper than Denver. I helped him unpack the Penske truck and it was kind of fun to see so many things we had given him over the years return. The BIG AH HA moment for me came when I was unpacking his spices and putting them in our pantry. Not only was I taken back he has spices I have never used, (yes he is a better cook!) but I realized we were becoming one of those families. We are three now. He is leaving in a few weeks on a tour that will most likely go for a year but then what? Just another band right? He is easy enough to have around so its not a problem but we had also become comfortable being just us. The point of this is how seamlessly we became a multi generational family...dont you suppose most began with someone saying its just for a week or two? Life is always changing and constantly surprising me with how it unravels my story.
J has been having some serious pain with a pinched nerve, (we think) and unable to do a lot of things he likes. We have friends coming to visit next week so I hope it is healing so we can get back on our bikes etc. I am back on a more regular schedule with yoga and continue to improve my strength. Again I feel good when I can reach a pose I couldnt do 3 months ago so I cant imagine stopping ever. Maybe a few child poses or stretches would help his pain? Sure helps mine.
We have been keeping track of the weather in MN and its suppose to be freezing cold and -60 w wind chill. One year when we lived there we also dropped into a serious deep freeze. Everything closed and school was cancelled for about a week. We had that wood stove going 24/7 to keep the house cozy and us warm. Everyone is talking about the cold like its the worse thing that could happen. I remember it as a lego marathon, endless movies, farms set up everywhere, reading, puzzles, candles lit and wine at the end of the day. Life is all about how you choose to live it.
Thanks for dropping by!
Cuz,
ReplyDeleteSounds like a good start to a new year. I feel the same way about the new year. It is the start back up on my "Emotional Calendar", Christmas being the bottom.
I just emailed the senior center here for volunteer positions, can't wait to get involved!!!! I miss it so much. I looks like a really good one with lots of diverse volunteer opportunities. I do need something flexible with as much travel I do these days but I can't have said travel keep me from getting a life around here.
Jim and Kristie are the king and queen of kids moving back! They have Scott, Holly and Jaynie right now, and have for months. S and H are saving for a house and gave up the condo to do so. Jason moved back for well over a year and maybe more than once. At one point they had Max home after dropping out temporarily form college (and his gf) and Jason living there. Jim and Kristie loved the empty nest for the short time they had it. I have to say, they are troopers!!!! I think you'll enjoy having Rande drop in and out.
Glad you're enjoying the working out, makes all the difference in the world. Yesterday at the gym there was an old woman next to me in my total conditioning class. She was doing her own thing but doing a good job of it. At one point I saw the top of her Depends sticking out of her pants! My heart was warmed that she was still at it and NO EXCUSES came to mind. It's a life long commitment. When we were in the bay area we took our annual 3.5 mile walk around the Layayette Reservoir, you prob saw the photo. Deans mom had not done it for 3 yrs since she broke her pelvis......she was going to give it a try. A few of us moved ahead of the pack and after a very steep part we decided to back track to see if they'd turned back or not. Nope! There was Ruth trucking away like nobodys business. She made it around the Res without a hitch.....I was so proud of her but also thought about what and inspiration this 88 yr old woman was. Ruth has been doing yoga for the past 40 so years. It's a very good testament! You keep up the good work and maybe a good example for Jerry, he could go with you.
xoxo and happy new year!!
cuz
Janet~You leave the best comments and I always look fwd to reading your positive remarks. Its like an added post to mine!
ReplyDeleteIt's kinda like having my own blog ; )
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